Wow, I lost my sh!t...

“All the water in the world cannot drown you unless it gets inside of you.” Eleanor Roosevelt Normally, I consider myself a pretty spiritually conscious person, but let me tell you, some water definitely got in this week! It started last Monday - I woke up and saw a phone message asking for my Shift Bars email password (something it never does). I went on my computer and my Mac Mail was was asking for the same thing. Weird. I checked some settings and saw the server in my settings was Hostgator. Duh! I switched website hosts a few weeks ago. That must be the issue, I told myself. I called Bluehost (my new hosting service), expecting a quick conversation in which I would get their server info, change my settings, and be on my way. But oh no, mon frere!!! Fast-forward TWO HOURS later and I am still on the phone. My entire website is down, I have no access to email and am being told there is nothing I can do about it for 7-10 days while my transfer goes through. Yeah, some water definitely came in! Screen Shot 2015-05-27 at 2.46.55 PM   That would be me on the phone with customer service last Monday...or at least that's how it felt.   Maybe you know the feeling - I felt myself observing the situation from outside myself saying, "This isn't that big of deal," "It will all get worked out," and "Cut this guy some slack, he's trying his best." But inside, rage and anger had taken over. And I couldn't seem to stop it. Even though I must have said the phrase, "I know this isn't your fault," about 10 times, let's just say I treated the tech with less than love and kindness. And it didn't feel good. Remember a few weeks ago when I talked about momentum? Well, I had some seriously negative momentum going. Finally, I hung up the phone, walked upstairs, and lost it in my bedroom. I'm talking yelling, crying and pillow punching. Screen Shot 2015-05-27 at 2.49.33 PM     Ever take it out on a pillow? It worked for me.     And you know what? I felt so much better afterwards. I even wrote the Bluehost tech an apology email for taking my anger and frustration out on him. All in all, it took about 4 calls totaling 8 hours over the course of 7 days to get everything back online. Talk about a lesson in patience! Hey, we all get angry and impatient sometimes. We're human. But we have been conditioned to think of anger and other similar emotions as negative or bad, and they're not. They're just emotions. Emotions come and go. They are clouds passing through, unless we hold onto them by resisting them. CLICK TO TWEET During that first phone call, I was holding onto my anger. I was holding on because I was "right" and they were "wrong," and by God, I was justified. But would I rather be right - or happy? For years, I wanted to be right. But no more. Today, I want to be happy. And Happy Emily lets go of her anger as quickly as possible, makes any necessary amends, and moves on. Happy Emily treated the other calls in a much more calm and collected fashion, knowing that the situation would eventually be resolved. So please accept my apologies for the absent email, and Bluehost tech, accept another apology for how I acted toward you on our call - you were just doing your job and I appreciate you. Screen Shot 2015-05-27 at 2.48.33 PM How do you deal with your emotions when things don't seem to be going your way? Any "aha's" that can help us all? Please share them on our Facebook page. Remember, your experiences are our teachers. Dry for now :-) Emily